I plan on uploading Randys videos that he left in regards to the shooting. starting with the drive videos and goodbye parents. I don’t know if you tube will let me keep them on their so I may have to find different video sharing site. Probably wont upload his egs stuff.

At some point I want to talk about Randy’s obsession with Ember. But I need time to get my thoughts together. This is another thing I feel connected to randy over.

I don’t know if anyone will ever read this blog. But I want to give some of my thoughts on Randy.I can kind of relate to randy in a way. In a lot of his videos especially the car ride videos where he is talking about how angry, alone and detached he feels with the world. I can relate to that. I feel the same way a lot of the time. I know plenty of people who do to. I think its a much more wide spread problem than people realize. I have friends who are just apathetic to everything. Nothing gets them excited nothing moves them. I think randy felt the same way. Randy was a troubled young man who wasn’t able to transition into an adult and I think this was at the root of his problems. I have some friends who are in the same position. I was to for a long time. I felt lost, I didn’t know what I was supposed to do after high school. No one had ever really told me. I knew the usual stuff about getting a job and having a life. But growing up I was never taught the skills necessary to do those things. I feel lost. Even now I feel lost, alone, and empty most of the time. I think randy felt much the same way. Where as randy took his anger out on the world I spent my energy exploring these feelings and trying to understand them. I hope someone will read this and share their stories and if they feel the same way.

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